… so I’m not going to lie, I live in the same City as my mom and yet we don’t spend much time together …
Today my kiddos and I had lunch with my mom and we had a blast. She has two new bassett hound puppies and my kids just loved them! They are darn cute I tell you … my kiddos and those puppies! It was such fun watching them play together!
What I wanted to share is how something so simple but profound hit me … I haven’t lived in my parents home for more than 22 years now and this afternoon at lunch my mom asked me to get her a ziplock baggie and I knew EXACTLY which drawer it was in! I haven’t gotten a ziplock baggie out of that drawer for 22 years and yet I knew where to get one! All kinds of feelings came to surface as I pulled that drawer open … brought me right back to 1989 … seriously … I totally felt 18 again today as I helped my mom make lunch and clean the dishes … it was nice actually … but totally weird!
I love my mom, my mom is really the main person who gave me the strong values I have, along with my two grandmas. My mom became a single mom when I was 8 and she struggled to give us what she felt was the best life she could give us and as I look back at the person she was then I find that I do many the things that she would have done then. It’s so amazing how the apple does not fall from the tree. Scary sometimes too!
This weekend I shot the wedding of Kimberly and Rob, both of whose parents have been married for at least 25 or more years, I know that because of the anniversary dance which always makes me cry because I just love happy older ones, and it made me think of my own childrens wedding, and how I can’t wait to do that anniversary dance with Tony…AND dancing to the lastest dance mixes that hopefully djwill will mix and we will dance like their parents did … which totally brought tears to my eyes at how wonderfully happy they were. My mom remarried when I was in Jr. High and my mom and dad just celebrated their 25th anniversary! Time sure does fly!
It really just hit me today how quickly something so small like pulling out a drawer can bring you right back to a place where so many things are possible and how today they really are too … we just need to be open to it … and not put up the walls that we do over time, to be open to remembering things that maybe we just forgot …
I love you mom.
So, this evening I’m feelin’ a little guilty. I can’t believe I’ve been so absent from my blog. I try to be so good and perhaps have written (in my mind) a blog post everyday this summer since the beginning of May; however, they just haven’t quite made it to the computer … I must, simply must, get better at it … and I will. Pinkie Swear! In fact, I gave my right hand gal Jenn access so that she can make sure of it! Jenn is da bomb!
by Penny
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